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sometimes when u race with life,and u stop suddenly to luk back!u see urself spend years doing nothing worthwhile.u seem to have lost days and days struggling to get inside madness when u were at peace.u would have spend time thinking about things that doesnt make any sense.u pass on quietly as days pass by,although days dont seem to pass as quietly as it seems to be.life becomes a pain in the fucking ass,when u wanna cut that ass of and put urself to rest for a while...

its been a pleasure,to get inside pain;
i never measured all my time wud go in vain,
people i thought about,left me in rain,
now i wanna get myself out of all the crap,
silly as they r,they make me laugh,
but they cry me too,
i wanna change,its time for a change,
too much of me and myself.....

tough times!

there are times in each one of our lives,when we are utterly frustrated.every place and every person seems to be of no help.u feel like a schizophrenic!those emotions,hallucinations,seclusion,numbness.i am moving through a very tough time at this point of my life.for the first time i feel that it is only i myself who can help me.the faith upon GOD helps to live.i feel such immense pressure from the environment around,i am surprised.times like these are perhaps bound to occur.
being in treacherous relations,tormented and tortured for reasons obscure.variable thoughts,confusion,no visibly apparent goals,except a great ambition.how do u move ahead?i believe i can stretch myself far.sometimes i feel being a machine would help.a total block of all emotions and just work.but these days i m so vulnerable.let us wait and have some patience.i believe in miracles and they happen to me all the time,just that i close my eyes for most of my times!

women and their devices!

this afternoon after a rigorous time with the books,i sat back and then finally laid myself over the bed.was about to sleep when suddenly,the memories of steppenwolf surpassed my eyes.i went for the book i was going through last night.the first chapter of the book is kind of weird and strikes ur attention and u ud definitely want to go through a few pages before u give up.well,i dunno about u people but i was attracted towards it like i was once to a fair sweet smelling flower,not from our very garden,but from a faraway land.
pages went by,as i realised the lonely soul of steppenwolf,but the pride he carried with his loneliness.my eyes were getting weary and were about to give up when i closed the book.as i closed my eyes,i was reminded of some fairy tale where i had been once.my fairy was not like we read in fairy tales,but she was a beauty to be admired.her big brown eyes,with a tinge of naughty shade.the eyes which always wants something,which can never rest,she could kiss u with those eyes!well,i m already tired by now.

irony!it deserves ironing..

Tonite for the first time i visited the blog of big B.Had a mix of feelings.Suddenly,i started thinking abt wut does he possess which i dont.Now all my friends can sit back and laugh with all their strength!
I am sitting with my book opened in front of me and writing a blog at this hour abt the nothingness in my life.I donot understand how a change in thought process of a person totally brings a change in his/her actions!The perception,the view,everything is seen differently by all of us in our own unique way.Success,failure,love,hatred...every damn thing that this mind can produce is different for all of us.But arent somethings the same--Like the shape of Earth,or the other similar stuff,blah,blah...Or do we need to differ?

lonely days!

i woke up the other morning;the first thing i went forward to do was get a smoke.Rubbing my eyes,i lit the cigarrete.As the first whiff of smoke went in i was reminded of MARILYN MANSON'S song...."the world is an astray,i smoke the days like cigarretes!"huh,i said to myself and threw the cigarrete when it was almost half way through.Then i started thinking about how i had become addicted to many things.Went inside the room,before switching on the lights,i went towards the computer,switched it on,waited for it to get started.
The day had just begun then!